Sorry for the lack of posts. We are not only going through so much but I feel like I have no extra energy to even type. I am so tired these days and I feel like I need to save most of my energy for my energetic two year old. 

I can't go into detail about what all is going on with us but basically the Lord is working on us. We are going through a season of waiting and simply trusting in God's plan. I know that all of us go through seasons where we are called to WAIT in peace and TRUST in God's Sovereignty. In fact, most of you are probably waiting for SOMETHING. Whether it's a big thing or even a small thing like finding out what gender your baby is. I am learning my fair share of what it truly means to trust. Right now I have this verse on my dashboard of my car, "The Lord is my strength and my shield; My heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him." Psalm 28:7
This verse is a constant reminder of how we are called to live. Sometimes I have to read it over and over and remind myself that I truly believe these things when I am having a down day but God is always good to quickly remind me that, His promises are TRUE. 
Sometimes it's hard to go through seasons like this with a thankful heart. But I find that the days that I choose to look at all the positives and choose to be thankful for everything I end up having a change of heart. 
I have read this poem recently on a few blogs; Blogs where girls are going through hard things in their life, things that I can't imagine dealing with. In what seems like my small insignificant trial this poem has brought me so much perspective and peace. I hope you enjoy it and will remember some of these promises when the "waiting game" seems to be too much to handle. 
Just Wait


Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried; quietly patiently, lovingly God replied. I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate, and the Master so gently said, "Child you must wait."

"Wait? you say 'wait'," my indignant reply, "Lord, I need answers. I need to know why! Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard? By faith I have asked and am claiming your Word. My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance, and YOU tell me Wait?"

"I'm needing a 'yes,' a go-ahead sign, or even a 'no' to which I can resign. And, Lord, You promised that if we believe we need but to ask and we shall receive. And, Lord, I've been asking! I need a reply!"

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate. As my Master replied once again, "You must wait." So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut. And grumbled to God, "So I'm waiting...for what?"

He seemed, then to kneel, and His eyes wept with mind, and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign. I could shake the heavens and darken the sun. I could raise the dead, cause the mountains to run."

"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be. You would have what you want, but you wouldn't know ME. You'd not know the depth of my love for each saint; you'd not know the power that I give to the faint. You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair; you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there; you'd not know the joy of resting in ME, when darkness and silence were all you could see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love as the peace of my spirit descends like a dove; you'd know that I give and I save (for a start), but you'd not know the depth of the beat of my heart, the glow of my comfort late in the night, the faith that I give when you walk without sight, the depth that's beyond getting just what you asked, of an infinite God, who makes what you have LAST.

You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee, what it means that "My grace is sufficient for thee." Yes, your dreams for that loved one overnight would come true, but, oh, the loss...if I lost what I'm doing in you!

"So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see that the greatest of gifts is to get to know ME. And though my answers seem terribly late, my most precious answer of all is still "WAIT".



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